Recap.

First Day of Spring Semester and it started out amazing, I have a new Focused Inquiry Teacher that I am so fucking excited about. And I have a one on one class to help get me off academic warning! Yesssss.


Tomorrow will be good too I think.

Saturday I went to Short Pump and had lunch with Evan his mom and his step sister, then we went to Urban and got some clothes and I got a pretty dress I wore to the dance party Evan, Gumby, and Anthony were spinning at, and that ended up being a lot of fun.
Evan and I adopted a kitty from the SPCA and his name is Travis, he's so beautiful and the sweetest cat I have ever met in my life, Im so in love with him.

I've been extremely lazy today, and havent gotten anything done really. Music wise downloaded some new songs. Evan has been down there working on Logic all day hopefully something good will be coming soon! :) I got Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner, even though the plans didnt work out as they were supposed too, I still enjoyed my amazing food, so good all the time. Im ready to move my stuff back into my dorm and im tired of it being all over the place in his room. I feel of such an imposer.

Last night was good

finally.

dance party at the camel, free, got to see some friends :)

I've

pushed through everything my whole life. I have made it through all the fucked up shit thats been on, and I continue to this day. I need a little motivation, an simple reminder that I am not alone. As much as I let people hurt me, you would think by now I would be ready to make it stop ready to be strong, but sensitivity and anger are my game. Im trying right now really hard. But whats one side without the other? Ill keep telling myself dont give up home, push forward, but how long till it crumbles again?


There was too much turmoil too deep inside.
Lost in the dark without our pride...there was a light at the end of
that tunnel, but we chose to shield our eyes. Could It be? Are we
seeing clearly for the very first time? We've been to the edge and we
know what it's like to want to die...and that's something we won't
glorify. We'll leave those miserable times behind. How far can I go?
I'm rising from the depths of my own hell. I don't need another tragic
tale. I need the strength to walk the other way. I found conviction in
my ever changing mind. I grew up tied down and bleeding on the inside,
but I know I was a victim of my own device, and I want to live to see
a brand new life.

we are returning to Richmond tomorrow which is Tuesday.

Class starts back up soon, and I am somewhat excited I guess.
Means the summer is closer and closer to getting my own apartment/loft/studio.

Spent.

I have spent the last 4 days with my amazing boyfriend in Wilmington, North Carolina at my parents house. Its been great compared to what I was expecting, a lot of weird accommodations I was never going to even think about happening ended up being the story. But this has been an uneasy trip for me for the sole reason of being home makes me so anxious, and the fact that my best friend is mad at me for a reason im not even sure about sucks. I guess thats how life goes sometimes it just sucks. I took Evan to Hiro's where he experienced his first Japense "in front" of you cook ahah, it was so yummy, liz joined us at that dinner. The next night we went again for my moms birthday which was really nice too and made me happy, because she means fucking everything too me. Yesterday I took Evan to Ripleys Aquarium in Myrtle Beach and we ate at the Hard Rock cafe afterwards, it was so nice. The best part about the aquarium was the flapping sting rays that we got to pet, so beautiful and so calm, I love animals too much for my own good. Hard Rock was nice too because I finally saw Leila after months and months. I missed her a whole lot too.

Time to back track on events.


New Years Eve was spent at the Camel while Evan was spinning.
Saw Pineapple Express finally with Evan, and Laura and Cullen joined us. Kinda a double date situation which was fun. Im glad that the four of us all hung out. We ate dinner at starlite before that too and it was nice as well.
I never wrote anything about 2008 like many people do, or I didnt even reflect on the year. But 2008 was a lifechanging year for me, I graduated highschool, got accepted to college, moved to college, lost a love but gained a new one, and made some new good friends, discovered a world I never knew about and many other things.


Resolution: Lose 25pounds before March 28th. When I fly out to LA.




today was un eventfull, slept almost the whole day with evan, best buy, then blockbuster. then movies, dinner, walmart, tv/computer, and here I am.
Im missing out on so much right now, but I think Ill continue to add once I see what I am missing.