this is the definition of no hope, this is the definition of the end of the road. lost, and no where to go. what the hell was I thinking?

Scorpio

Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. You shouldn't take Scorpios lightly, either. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps.

It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward. Others may find this overbearing (it can be) and even self-destructive, but that's the beauty of the Scorpion: these folks have tremendous regenerative powers, much like the literal Scorpion can lose its tail and promptly grow a new one. Fearless Scorpions rarely lose, per se, they just keep on going, since they are stubborn and determined to succeed (this Scorpio trait is in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign). Scorpios work as hard as they do so they can someday sit back and feel satisfied with themselves. These folks are intense, passionate and filled with desire. They're also complex and secretive, so don't expect to get much out of them, lest they become suspicious and exit stage left. It's best not to bet against Scorpios, either, since these folks are surprisingly resourceful.

Scorpio is one of the most sexual signs of the zodiac. They have a mysteriousness about them that just seems to attract lovers. But, they are very sensitive and hate feeling vulnerable. They are highly sensitive, so if you try to take advantage of them, they will catch on quickly.

They are very magnetic and fascinating people who have no problem attracting others to them. But they dislike it when someone tries to dominate them. They must be the leader in every relationship or they will leave.

Scorpio women are emotional and loving, but above all else, they can be demanding. The man who wins the love of a Scorpio woman will have to be able to hold his own ground against her. She has no qualms with telling him exactly what he can and cannot do if he wants to keep her. What would make a man love a Scorpio woman? He loves her because she is amazing, mesmerizing, and irresistible. She can do it all - from entertaining in the living room and being exciting in the bedroom.

A Scorpio woman thinks very highly of love and she has no problem attracting suitors. When she finds someone she thinks is worthy of her love, she will turn on the charm. But she is not looking for anything casual, so if you are - look elsewhere. She desires a close, committed relationship and won't stop looking for one until she finds it. Once she does, she is a very faithful and passionate lover.

So far today, I have managed to lock my keys in my dorm again. Almost fall asleep in Energy. And now I am sitting in Sociology lab right now and it is the stupidest shit I have ever seen in my life, and I pray to god I pass this class.

I had lunch with Amanda and that was really nice, it is nice to know that someone else feels the same way I do sometimes.


Obama is offically now the president.

I read my blogs, and I feel like a fucking idiot.

oh yeah, and I lost my fucking car key today.

great job savannah.

There's lots of Realizations I am not ready to open up too. There are a lot of things swirling around in my head. I miss my mother and Britney more than I ever thought I could. My struggle in Richmond, has been the biggest battle between my head and heart I have ever fought. I worry about the choices I am making constantly wondering is this all really worth it- the money, the emotional distress, the erratic ups and downs?

and then, I have one of those. Hearts racing, Cant breathe, Heaving, Choking, and throwing up come right after, I have lost all control of my head. Re wire me.

A soon visit to home will make this a lot better. Maybe I will go home, maybe I wont?

This sucks.

I don't think I'm really happy here, and I need to figure out if I am or not this semster.


Maybe, Im ready to go back to Wilmington.

breathe.

I have fallen in love with this song.

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,
It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.
Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,
Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

And we know it’s never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can’t,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn’t work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.