you'll never know.

Minus what I said before. NFG was amazing last night, as well as ADTR. Thank you. That's all  I needed, I guess with that kind of show it feels like a little piece of home. Despite the drama, or sucommbing to uncomfortable feelings it was overall good.

My throat is finally better. Now I have to get rid of my congestion and stuffy nose. Ewww.

I got to see Josh Smiz last night and his girlfriend who I got to meet too she was sweet. Hopefully they will read this :)

Ive been really stressed out the past two weeks. Two panic attacks in a matter of 6 days give some take some. It's rediculous. I just caan't make them stop, its like out of nowhere they come and hit me like a brick truck and then im sitting in my room for an hour heaving and crying..? I think I have figured out the causes of them, since I am such a introvert, I don't normally talk about my problems, esp. now that I am in Richmond. I don't have Blake anymore, or my mom, or Britney down the street to call or see and explain whats going on in my life, or at least get it off my chest. I just end up letting these things all build up then I explode. BOOM. And anyone that gets caught in my attacks, tends to think im just a little crazy. I mean maybe I am?

who knows.