tea cup.

Im drinking a tea cup of sweet tea right now. I decided a glass of sweet tea, might give me a taste of how my mom used to make it when I was home.

This week has been one of the roughest I have had. I dont pick up my phone anymore but for a few select people because I am so depressed in my life, and don't feel like putting it on others. I really need to go home. I really need to see my friends and my family. My mom, god I miss her so much. Thanksgiving could not come soon enough. Richmond has done so many great things for me so far but has also brought me down more than I ever imagined. I thought the grass was always greener on the other side, but- I was so wrong.

People here are just as shitty as people everywhere else.

I haven't cried this much is forever, and I keep just moping around. Breaking down in crying spells here and there. I can't say this could have come at a worse time. Right before exams, right before home break, when I have all this work for school going on. Good god someone save me.

I would like to name one person in Richmond I think I can trust, that isn't my family, but I couldn't do it if I tried. Girls backstab you and no one is sincere. Lindsay Guvera the only person I have met while I have been here, is probably one of the sincerest and she doesn't even fucking live here, she lives in Fredericksburg.

Britney, her and my mom are the people who have been able to cheer me up a little bit today. While I should be excited about Kid Cudi, and I should be excited about the parties going on tonight, but im just a big ball of fucking mope.

I want my headache to go away, and I wanna go home. I want a hug from my mother.

Tuesday could not be here sooner.