And this is has been the hardest past week for me, Im so emotionally drained I dont know what to do with myself anymore. In the morning I wake up and wonder if getting out of the bed is really worth it just because I know of the pain to follow later on. I am just ready to go home and visit and see people that I love and that dont hurt me. Good god. 

Ive been a violent rage and mess too. It was rediculous and has became even worse. I am just going super super crazy. And I know people are going to talk shit about me for the things I did, but honestly couldnt give a fuck.

guuuuush.

figure out why I made this small.