a break..

I guess I needed a break? I don't know all the reasons why and this is the way I am going to figure it all out. I feel like I am relieveing myself of many things though.

I am already realizing how much I really do love him. I feel so much rushing through me as I smoke this camel crush, and low to the melodic tunes of Cursive and Girl Talk.

Ask yourself. Do you know what love is? Do you know what it's like to feel real?

Talking to Jessie and Sean tonight about how here I am relieved. I don't stress hard or freak out easily everything seems so happy. I finally reached the point I worked so hard to get too. I am acomplished, I am me. I am euphoric. The drugs don't slow the method down whatsoever.

It's 4AM in the morning. What am I doing awake?

The smell of my inscense burning in my room, the four blankets, the tapestries, the feeling of not worrying about leaving my computer on, or having things all over my floor. I am comfortable. I am responsible. I am rambling.

The pixies is now ringing in my head.

Happiness, goodbye.