misconception

It's currently 2:33 AM. I left Oscar's around one thirty because I was getting so tired. I wasn't supposed to stay out tonight because I had homework but of course. I went out, I can't keep myself from not. I feel like I make these plans to be productive, and I can't. It's not that I have missed anything or anything hasn't gotten done. It's just I have freedom and I am not used to it being this way. There is so much for me to do here, and so much potential in the city that I feel like I have to go out. I can't just sit around and waste away...

I still have math 131 work to do, which I will start soon, stay up late and rise so early. Tomorrow is a no go though, I must stay in. Work is due thursday and friday and it's important. I must read as well. Chapters of Pyschology which by th way I am not looking forward too.

I miss my boyfriend. Even though the arguments we have, are stressin. I am moving on with it.  I know no ever human being has loved me the way he does, and I should be more gratefull for it.

After I got home tonight though, Hot Sauce decided to text to say hey. Ended up coming out to my dorm for a bit to chill and I finally met J-mait, then we walked to 7/11, which I can't get enough of... Then back to my room. To find myself here rambling on about stuff no one will ever read or care about.

Blake, please come home. Home as in here. Where my heart is.

Spinning in an incontrollable circle.

That's all for now. Im pathetic.